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Good Monday morning!!! Diving right in:  I was speaking with a friend late week; we were speaking about my “work”. To make a long story short(er), he said to me, “they don’t want to give up their food, it’s their best friend”. Well ya know I jumped all over that one! Best friend my you know what!! It jogged my memory of an old piece I found somewhere.  Please read it! Instead of me telling you how I answered him, it’s mostly in there. And it’s brilliant (so not my words, but oh how it could have been).

 

Okay, so then he says to me (cutting to the chase here), “well if they follow what you tell them to, they’ll lose the weight.” And I’m like, “IF? IF? IF they follow?” That’s like that old adage that I DESPISE: “just move more and eat less.” Well gee, that’s helpful, not. Sooo, I went onto tell him, it’s not IF they follow. Sorry, that’s just not what this is about. I’m not relying on IF’s. No siree! It’s about getting someone TO follow. I give them the tools TO follow. And wow do I have and ENDLESS supply of em'. I give them the skills to follow. I give them the knowledge, the empowerment, the push, the support, the on-going counseling, along with the “right foods” that make it easy TO follow. Thus – they follow. Thus – weight lost – happily, healthily, easily and PERMANENTLY. Oh there are no IF’s (or ands or buts) I will have you – following and falling (in love with healthy eating).


And here’s that BRILLIANT Letter I discovered years ago, the author was listed as “Anonymous”.  Please read it through. Spend the time. Invest in yourself!

 

Dear Food,

I love you so intensely, it hurts me to be away from you. You’ve been with me through all of my good and bad times. You’re the longest relationship I’ve had. I depend on you to help me up when I fall. Our intimate nights alone when no one else is around are so wonderful. It’s a secret love affair that gives me more satisfaction than I can ever remember. You are without question, my addiction. Even when there are times that I feel frustrated at the things you’ve done to me, I always run right back to you. My safety blanket, my rock, my ever loving and understanding companion. You are here for me when everyone else fails to love me in a way I need or want. I couldn’t possibly ever live my life without you, a few days without you and I would perish. Even just a day without you I would get lonely & weak. I hate that I feel this way about you. It makes me so angry that I can’t just walk away and never turn back. You’ve got me so entangled in this dysfunctional relationship. How could you do this to me? You’re supposed to love me and maybe you do, but my love for you is slowly killing me. I can’t live without you but I can’t live loving you the way I do either. I know you’ve supported me; I know you’ve always been there when I needed you. I know sometimes you were the only one around. How can I possibly turn my back on you now? Somehow I have to find the strength. I know you want me to explain myself. It’s just so difficult to say these words when I know after they are said I have to walk away. With your support you’ve also brought me shame. You’ve brought sadness and hurt into my life. You’ve made me feel so down about who I am and what I look like. It’s gotten so bad over the past few years that I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without thinking I’m disgusting. I remember I used to look in mirrors passing by, now I keep my head down. If I do happen to catch a glimpse, I run to you for comfort because I hate myself and you do what you do best. Honestly, your best is hurting me and I can’t take it anymore. It’s finally at the point that my disgust with myself is way beyond the feeling I get when I’m around you. We’ve been down this road before so many times. You comfort me when I feel down, but then after the comforting is over I feel even worse. How is it that I let myself be satisfied with just a few minutes of comfort when I deserve so much more ? I deserve to feel good about myself. I deserve everything I’ve always looked for in you but never found. I deserve the comfort without the guilt. You give me so much guilt. You provide so much negativity in my life that I can’t see clearly at times. When I get comfort elsewhere it never feels as good and at the same time never hurts at much. How messed up is that ? I still, no matter how hard I try, can’t understand how you make me feel so amazing and then with the blink of an eye you turn on me and make me feel terrible. I’m done, I can’t do this tug of war anymore with you.

I’m so tired of all the anger & pain. I’m done shedding all these tears over how you make me feel. I’m so confused; how you do the things you do? You’re ruthless. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, but it’s for my own good. All these years I spent looking to you for things you couldn’t give me has done awful things to my mental and physical health. I must be strong. I know that no matter how much I beg you, you’ll never leave my side. You’ll be everywhere I am and there is not a single thing I can do about that. My only choice is to co-exist and to be civil. Since I know that you’ll always be there watching and waiting for me to have a weak moment, I’ll have to be stronger than I’ve been before. It’s ok, you stay there & watch me. I’ll forget you, I’ll forget those times you were there for me, I’ll forget those times you made me laugh, I’ll forget every fake happy memory I had with you. What I won’t forget is how awful you have made me feel every time I thought I could let you in. Now I know, as long as I’m strong, you can be in my life, but not the way you were before. It can never be that way again. You destroy too much of me when I bring you close. I have no choice but to accept you’ll always be waiting for me to fall again but no matter how bad I might feel like I want you, I’m done. I will never fall victim to your powerful, deceitful ways again. You provide more harm than good, how many times do I need to learn that lesson?  I love you & I probably always will but it’s over.  Lesson learned.  Goodbye.


*One quick(ish) word from me, she ended the letter : “I love you and I probably always will” – ummm, no you won’t. The “love affair” (with "those" foods) will be over! I will have you falling in love with  the foods that don’t leave you feeling DISGUSTED with yourself, but DELIGHTED. You will have a wonderful relationship with food and discover that yes, food is MEANT to be your best friend!! But a true, true best friend, one that has your back. 24/7/365!

 Have a friendly, phenomenal week! Vicki

 

 

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